Thursday, 20 August 2015

Catching up

I've been a bit lax in updating here. I've had a couple of punishments since my last post, though I also had my first day where I didn't break any rules! Hooray!
Unfortunately yesterday I slipped again, it's always the problem, I drive a lot and the temptation to check my phone while driving never goes away because I get bored. Then once I'd done it once I figured I was already getting punished so I may as well carry on. When I said this to wife she was furious, and I copped extra punishment last night
She hasn't yet used the cable monsters I made but has taken to using a plastic rod from a cat toy as a cane which is agony! Last night she went for my thighs "to spare my bruised bum" and I couldn't keep still which just made it worse. I also started hyperventilating again in the middle and had to get her to stop while I calmed down, which made her cross with me.
Today I have already slipped a couple of times witg regards the phone so I know I'm in for it again. I need to drill it in to my head that doing it equals bad. Hopefully she won't choose to use the loopy things for the first time to hammer that point home

Monday, 17 August 2015

Industriousness

So, I have been industrious. Following on from the last post, wife asked me to find something better than the spoon, and also a way to stop me moving.
So, I did lots of googling, found lots of sites selling stuff, then came across a site selling a loopy johnny made from coaxial cables. A light bulb went off in my head as I often work with coax. Alas, I have no coax at the moment, but did make some prototypes from lengths of mains flex.
I made two different sizes and one double loop, not knowing what size to go for. I had several lengths left over so fashioned a rsther rough flogger.
Of course, wife wanted to try them out straight away so I was bent over the bed wondering what I'd gotten myself in to. Turns out loopy johnnys have a deserved reputation. Just two hits in I was squirming away.
She tried out them all, I think the double was the worst. Think I'm in trouble now.
Also for the not moving, I figured a piece of rope under the bed, attached to wrists and ankles as tight as possible should do the trick

A bad weekend

So the weekend at my parent's really wasn't great. As said previously, my brat came out firing, and rule after rule fell before him.
But worst of all was the final one. I broke rule 15 - no touching myself. I didn't....follow through...as it were, but the violation happened and I had to confess it. No idea what came over me.
We got home last night and as soon as we went to bed I was told to get into position.
I was lectured and beaten for what felt like ages but was probably only 5 minutes. That damned wooden spoon doing its job on my behind. I felt awful, and wife had to hold my legs down to stop them from kicking up and I even at one point involuntarily put my hands back to stop the pain, but this obviously had the opposite effect and the spanking got harder.
At the end I was pretty much hyperventilating and wife held me and made me slow my breathing down. I felt absolutely awful for all I had done over the weekend.
I got another reminder spanking this morning too, again harsher than the previous but we'll deserved. Oddly the spoon doesn't seem to be having as much lasting impact as it did, my behind seems to be dealing with it more, so if wife wants pain that lasts more than a few hours we may need to upgrade to something else...shudder.
Annoyingly I'm still holding on to the guilt of the weekend, and may have to ask wife for a follow up punishment, as it's making me cranky

Saturday, 15 August 2015

Bringing out the brat

Slightly late on this post due to busyness. Another punishment on Thursday night for more rule violations - always the same ones. I find using my phone while driving has become a seriously ingrained habit and very difficult to break.
This punishment was once again more severe than the last owing to the repeat nature of the offenses. While laid over receiving it I try to think on the things I've done wrong so my brain will associate them with punishment. When wife begins to lecture me at the same time it really drives home that was I did was wrong.
I get very upset knowing I've upset and disappointed her by breaking the rules we've agreed to.
Next morning was another reminder spanking, this time with the spoon.
Friday wife had to come to work with me as after we were heading up to visit my family for the weekend. She has a habit of correcting my driving and this really brings out the brat in me. At one point I was dancing to the music and took both hands off the wheel for a moment. I was told in no uncertain terms that if I did it again I would pull over and receive a spanking.
This flared my inner brat, who was almost positive she wouldn't do it - note almost - and that brat proceeded to wind her up and back talk the rest of the trip, but not enough to test her resolve on that threat.
This morning, at my parents house, feeling bratty again, I have been back chatting a little, and I'm pretty sure when we get home tomorrow evening I will feel the consequences. I don't know if it's just my brat testing the boundaries or if it wants to prove that she really cares enough to punish me when I'm bad, even away from home.
The psychology of the inner brat is a mystery

Thursday, 13 August 2015

So close and yet so far...

So yesterday I thought I'd gotten through the day without breaking a rule. But then I talked to wife about an angry confrontation with an HGV driver who objected to me going the actual speed limit. Because I then reacted with the timeless gesture of raising a particular finger, this constitutes swearing in public.
Aaaaaand then she asked if I'd sent an email I was supposed to send over a week ago and I had to admit that I'd completely forgotten.
So, after the previous night's heavy punishment, while this one was no where near as long, wife managed to hit exactly the same spots as she did before, and had be almost screaming apologies from the get go and the first time I've ever begged for a reprieve - not heeded of course.
A small hand spanking this morning acted as a reminder and reawoke the stings so that I remember to be on my best behaviour today. Let's hope...

Wednesday, 12 August 2015

Difficult

I've been having a lot of trouble with some of the rules, just as I thought I might do.
Have received a couple of spanking in the past few days for repeat offenses - using phone while driving, eating when I'm not supposed to and failing with the personal hygiene.
I think this has discouraged wife a bit and she feels it's not having the desired impact - it is, as I'm not doing these things anywhere near as much as I used to, but she can't see that when I'm out all day.
We discussed this morning implementing reminder spankings in the mornings before I go to work, essentially to top up the discipline so I will feel it throughout the day and be reminded. After last night I have definitely not been using my phone today while driving as I am feeling it today.
My only problem is if the reminder spanking is with the wooden spoon - as on a bruised bum that's gonna hurt - though of course that's the point, so it's up to wife, as always

Friday, 7 August 2015

Rules

Well, be careful what you wish for, especially when your HoH reads your blog. Today was not a good day with regards rules.
I forgot to brush my teeth, I used my phone while driving out of habit, then I was talking back and arguing the toss about things. I also forgot to put the bins out this morning, and swore in public (quietly).
So tonight wife informed me that it wouldn't be corner time, I'd get a spanking. Over the lap I went and the spoon came down on my already sore and bruised behind. This was a lot shorter than the last one but my tolerance was not high at all. I was feeling awful for having broken all the rules and I was quickly screaming out apologies. At the end I was breathing very fast and after a cuddle, I started crying, which I think shocked wife a little and she wasn't sure what to do, but she told me she loved me and that I would do better.
And I will do my best to live up to her expectations. I never realised quite how much I do wrong

Aftermath

So, following on from the last post. Our new dynamic has taken effect. My bottom has been very sore from my "clean slate" spanking.
I've heard the saying that you "can't sit for a week". For me, sitting isn't too bad. The actual act of sitting hurts a bit, and getting up again. But once I'm down It's ok. It's if you shift around that it hurts. And walking. That hurts too. So walking several miles through a busy city yesterday really didn't help.
The redness has gone down to a funky pattern of bruises now, which I think wife is happy with.
Yesterday I got in a small amount of trouble - I had used my phone while sitting in traffic. Not actually driving, but - and I didn't realise this - it's still illegal and still a rule break. Good to know. Wife was cross with me, as well as that I argued the toss about it, and I got some corner time, which was very embarrassing.
Not sure though, while corner time was bad, not sure if it really *felt* like I'd paid for it. Maybe something to talk to wife about, using the non spankings as an enhancement to spanking rather than a substitute.
Anyway, in trouble today for forgetting to brush my teeth. Twice. Hopefully mitigated slightly that I admitted it off my own back.
So we shall see what happens. Blogging this while stopped at a service station having a rest on my way to a job, so should probably hit the road again.

Wednesday, 5 August 2015

Beginning a new life with a clean slate

Hi everyone and welcome to my blog about This Thing We Do - Domestic Discipline. This will be my place for writing my thoughts and feelings. My wife, who is my Head of House, will be checking here regularly to make sure I am posting things.
We have entered in to this dynamic at my own request, as I feel I need to feel accountable for my actions and suffer consequences when I do wrong.
Tonight we hashed out the contents of our formal agreement which you can see on the "Contract" tab - this may change as we go forward, and takes effect from tomorrow morning.
So, to go in to this dynamic with a clean slate, we decided that a decent spanking to expiate and atone for all the things I have done wrong over the previous 8 years of our marriage.
This is the first serious spanking I have received and oh...my...god. I have had play spankings before and let me tell you that in the context of play I would have safeworded about 20 seconds in. I'm sure as serious punishment spankings go it wasn't all that bad but for our first, that was serious stuff.
Wife wasn't all that sure to begin with, but once she had me over her lap and started, all the things that had pissed her off previously started coming out.
After a while she stopped, and we talked, and both realised we were still holding on to some stuff, so over I went again. Thank god for biting on pillows or my howling would have brought the house down.
Turns out there was a lot that we were both holding on to.
So, on a 1-10 scale of badness, I'd rate this as a 6.5 - there could definitely be worse but I do not want to experience it.
Tomorrow my rules kick in, and there are plenty that I will have trouble with, so I imagine I will be feeling the wrong end of the wooden spoon again soon - I will do my best though.
I will be keeping an account of all my punishments in the diary tab.
So to sign off, wife was really quite impressed with what my poor bottom looked like - bright red!